I thought for sure I was going to give you an update on day 100. Not because we would have any news, but mostly because 100 seems like an important number, and sure feels like a long time, so naturally day 100 of waiting would deserve its own post. Right? Wrong apparently.
The good thing about the news we received a few weeks ago is we are free to not anticipate tomorrow, because tomorrow is likely not going to consist of a referral or anything new. We have been anticipating since July 14th (at 10am to be exact), so this has been refreshing in a weird way. I was angry, sad, and an emotional basket case when we first received the news, but now I am content. So content that day 100 just zoomed right by me.
WAIT. Did I just say I was content about waiting? Yes. I did. And it is true.
I am not content because of anything that is in me, but because of Jesus and the perfect peace He brings. This is good in so many ways. One being my sanity. This waiting game moved into our life quickly, fiercely, and it meant business. It may seem like an innocent enough word, it is not. It was slowly driving me insane. It was consuming my life.
And for those of you who think 100 days of waiting doesn't seem that hard, I ask you, when have you waited 100 days for anything? We live in America where someone can make food for you in two minutes people.
I am so very thankful for the contentment and peace that passes all my understanding. It doesn't make sense, it is not my personality, and I love it!
In other news, my mom spent some time with us this week and it was awesome. She is so selfless and I found myself hoping I can be that selfless for my children one day. She took me to see a movie she had already seen (just because I wanted to), she **cleaned** my house (in only the way a mother can), and outfitted our dogs for Christmas, among many other things. Note: cleaned is bolded, starred, because all that she did is definitely deserving of way more than the word cleaned.
Mom, thank you for being such a great example of selflessness and love.
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