With each day about adoption or big milestone, I am typically super excited. Today is not that day.
We have hit some big bumps in the road this week and it is disheartening to say the least. I cannot share specifics about the bumps yet, but know they are the kind you hate. The kind that make people like me cry. The ones that you hope do not happen to you as you read other stories.
Yesterday someone asked me if we were adopting and said "wow that is so cool" - it took everything not to cry and bare my soul on how not cool it is at the moment. I am sure this random man would have loved that.
I have heard people say "adoption is not for the faint of heart." I did not think I was faint of heart, but I would be lying if satan has not thrown in the idea that quitting would just be easier. And he is absolutely right. It would be easier. I would cry and hurt less. But quitting is not what God has called us to do.
When we began this adoption, I had hopes of a perfect process that went by so smoothly and we lived happily ever after. I know, I was dilusional. But a girl can dream.
More than anything, we have prayed and hoped this adoption process would be played out exactly how God wanted, and we still believe He is in control. We know this time is being used to bring Him glory and for His purpose, so as hard as it is, we press on to continue what He has started in us.
If you would like to join us in prayer, please pray the God would show us the perfect way to Little R. That satan would have no place in this process in any way. And that God's perfect will would be done.
1 Peter 4:12-13 "Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed."
And with Thanksgiving right around the corner...I still say thank you Lord for this process. Thank you for using things like this to strengthen us and make us more holy for you.
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