What Is Sleep?

Sleep. I love my sleep. I am the person who can fall asleep at the drop of a hat, in any situation, and sometimes L counts how long it takes at night and only gets to 15 seconds. I have always felt blessed by this and not really understood what it would be like if it were different.

Well, from the moment we found out about Little R, I could not sleep. We waited a whole four days for his picture and I maybe slept 20 hours, maybe. My mind would race with thoughts of him and all the paperwork we needed to get done and when we would hear more. I would wait for that little red light on my blackberry to blink and then check to see if it was a new email from our contact. I had bags under my eyes like never before and I was grumpy. For a girl who usually sleeps so much, not getting my 8+ hours was miserable.

I would lay awake and pray for God to please, please, please just make me fall asleep. But who was I kidding? He was probably laughing at me saying "Yeah, lay down your silly control idol and anxiety, trust me and my timing, and you will probably fall asleep."

Once we turned in our paperwork I began sleeping better, but this week started the anxiety of waiting for a court date so the sleep is lacking once again. However, my company did upgraded me to the iPhone and you know the one think I absolutely love about it? IT DOESN'T HAVE THE BLINKING RED LIGHT!

I know, I know what you are thinking...everyone has already said it. I need to sleep now before he gets here because these are my last good days of sleep. Trust me, I wish my brain had a rest button.

We have been busy with life and work in general, and then also trying to prepare for travel and our baby boy's room! Here are some pictures from the fun we have been having...

We received the baby carrier for our trip...Jada likes it!

Painting of Little R's room...


Really - why do they make so many shades of blue?



We chose a more neutral one that looks blue and yet sometimes gray. LOVE it.



To get Little R's room painted we had to move everything around...while the paint was drying we left these adorable stuffed animals my parents got Little R in the new play area. The problem with not have him here to play with them is that our current children (Jada and Roxy) think they are for them. Boy do they have a rude awakening coming soon...

On another note, I wish I was posting more and updating all of you who have joined our journey, however, I have been slacking for a few reasons. Mostly because my brain is exhausted and overwhelmed with all that is about to happen, and also because we cannot share everything about Little R so publicly yet. Thank you for your faithful friendship and prayers as we get so close to bringing Little R home!