I cannot control this...WHAT!?!

If there is one thing I am learning, it is I cannot control things. This seems to be a recurring theme, but apparently adoption is not any different. I am confident it is in the Lord's plan for this adoption process to teach me I am not in control. As if I have not already learned that a time or two before.

We are waiting, and trying to wait well. To wait the way God tells us and wants us to wait. And most days this works well. Honestly we are pretty content with the waiting.

But then there are moments when it hits me. My child is alive. Little R needs a mommy and daddy...maybe even a Jada and Roxy. Grandparents and aunts to spoil him/her. And there is nothing we can do. Nothing we can control.

Then I am reminded...God is a better parent to Little R than we can ever hope to be. He promises to be a father to the fatherless, and that gives me hope. I was reminded of this Sunday when we sang a new song at church. I couldn't remember that song, but I found Chris Tomlin's song "Faithful" that reminds us of the same promise.

Faithful, forever You are faithful
Father to the fatherless
You uphold the one who feels forsaken
You are faithful, God...

Many people ask if the waiting is hard. I have talked about how we are waiting and that we haven't waited that long (48 days to be exact, but whose counting) <insert all you adoptive parents rolling your eyes and scoffing at the number> ...it is totally fine, I am sure I will one day too. But honestly this whole process has gone pretty quickly. We are blessed.

So is the waiting and no control part hard? Not if we rest in the fact that God is watching over Little R and has His hands all over this process.

And another way we plan to fill our waiting time is with college football. We both love it, even though we are a house divided, and the harassing has already begun.

PS...we have 70 shirts to sell to help with adoption costs! Did you get one? Do you know someone who wants one? Thanks to everyone who has already gotten one - please send us a picture of you in your shirt so we can show Little R one day!